May 2012
96 posts
Why do I have to be such a pig?
Anonymous asked: why do you wear black?
Anonymous asked: what shops (real ones or online) do you usually buy your clothes from?
Why does T2 have to be on this late at night? I have work tomorrow :’(
Thoughts
I know my hair has grown a lot but it just looks shorter and shorter in every photo. Why can’t it be down to my waist? I wonder how well it would take to getting chemically straightened? I wish I had Asian hair. Rhinoplasty looks like it would hurt so much and it’s put me off having it done. But I still want it done. Why do I get a pimple every time I kiss my boyfriend? Why does my...
The scales at my work say I weigh 4kg more than my scales at home. What a relief.
It fucking sucks when someone you love is a jerk to you every time they drink.
Anonymous asked: what app do you use?
Why are the people in the world who don’t look after their skin at all and I do everything right and still have fucking pimples and cysts and scars everywhere? I do everything right!!!!
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My cat really is my life companion.
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Anonymous asked: When did you start feeing depressed? What started it and how did you recognize it?
Anonymous asked: you do know being 'thin' won't make a difference to your level of happiness right?
Anonymous asked: why don't you do something to change your life is you hate it so much? I dunno, go overseas, make an effort to make new friends, study, go on a new career path, take up a hobby, join a book club, i dunno, something? life is all there is. no point in wasting it.
Howl into my pillow until I get a migraine because life is so fucking shit. Why can’t I just have a brain aneurysm.
I have exercised 3 separate times today and I am so scared to wake up in the morning.
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Alone alone alone
This time 2 years ago I was, albeit hypomanic, happy. I was thin, I had friends, I wanted to go out, I always had someone to talk to and people who cared, I had just come out of the worst depressive episode of my life. Now I am to sad and to disgusted in myself to leave the house, I have no friends, I have no one who understands, I cry and cry and cry, and I cry because I have no reason to cry, I...
Nude by nature makes me cry a little less when I look in the mirror. It’s good.
Got all dressed up to get into bed and cry.
I hate still being in the “if you want to lose weight you are not meant to eat” mindset. I feel guilty forcing myself to eat 3 proper meals a day and I look like a fat pig.
I wish I had a good bum.
It is so hard when people don’t understand your illness and you are to retarded to ask for help.
I have already been awake for 8 hours today.
The real world isn’t cutting it.
I am so alone I just want to disappear into my fantasy world where I know everything will be perfect.
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“Nearly every guy she sees she thinks is cute or hot or ugly”
– My 10 year old cousin’s view of me 